August 1st, 2009 I thought my world came to an end. I had been dating a man (we will call him BadX for blog purposes) for over 5 years that had 2 young sons. The boys (who I will generally refer to as the boys) moved in with me when they were 3 and BadX lost his job again and for the last time soon after that.
BadX was a drug addict and slowly continued to get worse and worse until my life was solely lived for those boys and covering up BadX's indiscretions so that they were not taken away from me. I did not care whether he lived or died (sick but true). This was very selfish looking back I should have told their mother and had her take them back and kicked badX to the curb. I did not do this, however. Instead, I continued to feel that the best place for them was with me (I still do not doubt this) and that the only way for them to be with me was to be with BadX.
I lost my job in April of 2009 and since I had no money for BadX to steal he began Dr shopping and selling Rx to feed his habit. Through these activities he met his new GF (Desperate4Luv). I call her Deperate4Luv because she saw his schizo drug addict ways and didn't care, she was so desparate and he saw a chick with a job so on August 1, 2009 he took the boys to live with a woman he had known for 2 months and had met through dealing drugs. I was more than scared, I was angry, but unfortunately I had no rights what so ever.
I had let him ruin my relationships with my friends and my life and my credit and now I had nothing to show for it not even my big screen TV that he stole that night and definately not those sweet little boys, that I just knew he was going to ruin.
In my time of need I turned to a friend that I had known forever for comfort and and we fell in love....
2 MONTHS LATER I WAS PREGNANT and so it all began.
I will talk about current events in my now normal life and also I will flash back a little as my dear Eden is 7 months old I am a little behind.
