Eden's first trip to Disney.

My son amazes me every day.  He is so smart and intuitive even at his young age.

At Disney he was looking around so amazed and happy.  It was perfect weather for the perfect day with family after laying my grandfather to rest yesterday.

Why does Disney make us all feel like we are 5 years old again when you get there and 100 years old when you leave.  I love it!  I am so happy to my little man gets to experience so much where we live.

goodbye grampa

we laid my grampa to rest today.  so i wanted to list the wonderful things about him here so that someday Eden may know how great he was.

v  he took care of my bed ridden granny for 10 years before she passed away

v  he took me to a renaissance festival when i was 4 and bragged that i could build a loom after climbing around and studying it.

v  he gave me my first job, helping him sell plants at the farmers market and not getting mad when i played most of the day.

v  he always said that i was the most like him out of all of his grandkids.

v  he loved the fact that i would go anywhere he would take me.

v  he had a 9th grade education but could solve almost any math problem using logic.

v  he never allowed his southern up bringing to make him a bigot.

v  he had a million different careers over his life time.

v  he could tell the same story the same way a hundred times.

v  he served his country

v  he knew everything there was to know about plants.

v  he was a lifelong winter gardenian.

v  he always called me and my sister "boy."

v  he was one of my favorite people.

these are a few things that made him great (i may add more as life goes on)

Feeling Bad

So I mentioned to the boys' mom that Teddy Bear had told be that he and Sugar did not have costumes.  I told her this after Halloween and after I new that she bought them costumes.

I don't even know why I did it, I should have told her before Halloween or not at all.  I think I didn't mention it because I am always afraid of making her feel like a bad mother.  I really want to scream at her that she needs to act it work before it is too late.  I do not think that she will ever convince Sugar to move in with her, because he has a best friend where his dad lives and I don't know that she wants Teddy Bear by himself even if he would leave his brother.

She says that they can come live with her when she gets a house, but they CAN live in an apartment... Maybe they are better off with BadX.  He has A LOT of faults but he does love them, I guess that counts for something...

I stay silent even when I shouldn't and I do not say anything to either parent that could jeopardize my time with the boys.  Not sure what that makes me :/