Feeling Bad

So I mentioned to the boys' mom that Teddy Bear had told be that he and Sugar did not have costumes.  I told her this after Halloween and after I new that she bought them costumes.

I don't even know why I did it, I should have told her before Halloween or not at all.  I think I didn't mention it because I am always afraid of making her feel like a bad mother.  I really want to scream at her that she needs to act it work before it is too late.  I do not think that she will ever convince Sugar to move in with her, because he has a best friend where his dad lives and I don't know that she wants Teddy Bear by himself even if he would leave his brother.

She says that they can come live with her when she gets a house, but they CAN live in an apartment... Maybe they are better off with BadX.  He has A LOT of faults but he does love them, I guess that counts for something...

I stay silent even when I shouldn't and I do not say anything to either parent that could jeopardize my time with the boys.  Not sure what that makes me :/