It hurts me that Perfect doesn't like the boys being in my life. He feels that it would be better for everyone if I just left them alone, but I just can't. They have been abandoned over and over and now they are living with someone who treats one of them like a second class citizen.
I would hate for them to feel like my love for them is less than it is. They need to know that someone will always be there for them. At the very least someone responsible, because I know that BadX loves them, but he does nothing to care for them.
I have to beg and bargain to get Perfect to let them come over. I know that they are not technically my kids, but that is not the way they feel and it is not the way I feel either. LB (little brother) has my personality and my love of cuddling. BB (Big Brother) has my brain and lack of living up to my potential.
I raised them from the time I was 25 and they were both 3 until they were 7, every time I pick them up they say you are pretty much our mom <3. I was the soul financial provider and I was the only one that took them to the park and the pool and I was the only one who went to their student teacher meetings.
I WAS THEIR MOMMY!
I would never deny his right to see his "ex" stepson if he was able to. Unfortunately, his ex is an evil witch who expected him to raise the boy as his own until she decided to get back with the biological that abandoned him in the first place.
I wish that I knew that the boys would be ok....
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